I am lucky to have...

Studying at a new place.New challenges,new face,new attitude.

Everythings gonna be new now.Reviving every single old thing in myself or at the environment.

ALHAMDULILLAH,finally I managed to toughen myself in this new place.Sitting in front of lappy, reminscing the old days..its getting me all teary..Missing the old best friends,missing the old great wonderful school,missing the always filled of laughter environment.I have grown up.

The past seems so far away.I cant even reach it....

Huhuhu...and yeah..I have got myself new friends..Kelantanese,Sarawakians and so many more.Glad to have so many new friends,but it seems that the friends that I have been together for about 6 years,still manage to be my number one besties.I am so grateful to be bless with so many good friends.

Facing hard times,there is no one to help you except He THE GREATEST ALLAH.It makes me realize the important of religion in human life.I am so grateful to be in Islam.I have ALLAH to story all my sadness whenever I feel down.It feel really great to have no one besides you but you never feel alone.Now,I am truly understand when people says,in Islam help will be anywhere.

Ok now just wanna put some new and old pictures...

meet my new and not so new friend...amal and jane...huhu..amal!!

ok..I am freezing in this hall...red ocean nieh..

my matrixx friend..there are more actually..

 Yap...she is the greatest best friend I ever had

My matrixx roomate..miss them

I miss them so much too

MY ALWAYS TVXQ FOR FIVE

I miss my kampong!!

Another step~~

Yup!I'm gonna talk about this now...from a long time hiatus since the matrix ,and time really go fast...Pufff!and i have to face a reality of life in this university.It feel just like yesterday is the last day of the matrix final sem,and now within two months...I've to go again.Leaving my precious family and home behind.Forgetting all the comfort and love*slap...WTH I'm talking about?I'm so over..it's not like I'm force to go to a war..It just to study.....perghhh..

Chill out gurl....there's a long way to go...hahaha..Life will never be easy for you..

So,I'm gonna tell the moment when I get the offer...Yeah..daddy said    

"Na,sok result kuar..pas kol 12..Bdbnd ley pki ag x?"

and my respond

*gulp*nodded three times...too nervous to even speak.

Mommy..daddy..i'm scared...and they,with the calmest face ever...

"Ala..dpt2..caye je la ckp mak ayh nie"

YES!I really want to believe..but..I'm just a nervous paranoid girl,that can't stop thinking about bad things.Ding dong deng..12.30....should I?...no..no..wait..1.30...now?yeah!now or never..

Okay!browsing through intrnt...scrolling here and there..find a link...and there...

Sila masukkan no kad pengenalan 

Alamak...i/c ak bape doh...Searching for purse..maneplak purse ak pegi time tgh crucial cmnie..nk ilang plak..

"Mommy...nmpk purse nina x?"

"Apenyer kamu nie,brg kamu tanye ma plak"

"Kot la ma nmpk"

"Aah kamu...dpn mate kamu tu ape?"

"Uit..sejak bile plak ad kt sini nie ma?" ak wat senyum kambing kt mama

"Entah ler..jln sndri kot mende tu"

"Kekeke...sorry ma"

Okay..back to the room...nk msok ke tak nk nie...hesitating for bout half hours...Oiii..na,ko x yah nk kecot sgt lar...semak result je pon..Okeyh...I'll try.

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....mum!dad!I've made it!Ya Allah!syukur2...syukur Ya Allah..*sujud syukur..Thanks..mom,dad for your neverending pray and support to me..Thanks again Ya Allah..*sniff..Oi!Overacting pehal?bru dpt twrn..bkn graduate da...aish..okay2..

Takdela...Aku bkn ape...paranoid la..rsult matrik ak bkn gempak pon..tak gempak langsung!pastu pressure from both family sides..Uncle..aunties..aiyoo,you'll never know how I face them,talking proudly about their son and daughter achievement..Yeah..I know,I'm not genius as they are,but at least I've try my best.I push myself to show them what I got..Yeah..I'm not like their children.Studying in california,egypt..I'm just an ordinary person.

Sape tak sedey oi..org mane nk nmpk ape yg kite wat..camne kite study.They'll never know..the y just know,their children must be better than me...arghh...whatever..I'm just gonna 

DEAF MY EARS AND ENJOY MY LIFE...

   

last week of lectures!

yeahhh!!!the last week of lectures in matrixx...should i jump in joy or feel nervous..

coz the final is also getting nearer..huhuhu

juz wanna share some thought..

but it seems that the connection is bad...

bye2 la

sc comp~~

keke...the comeback of brand new me!!huhu..naah,,,sebenarnye curi2 updating my blog in sc comp lab time..huhu..madam!so sorry..kekeke

oh..i'm counting days to pspm..and also to come home..oh i miss my home so much....got to go..daaa~~

chiki~~~

konomachite,meguriata(my ringtones) yoboseyo?nina kakak nie...oh kakak..why?no,,juz wanna tell you...what??chiki has died...................................what!!!!!!reallyyy!!!no!!!!!!!...................................................................

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my cattttt...hukhuk..chiki died..!!!mama...so sad..he supposed to play with me now but he`s gone forever...chiki..sis will miss u so much..really2x..and worst i was not there when he died...it`s a tragedy for me..

i know he`s been sick..but i never thought that he's gonna leave me..what am i supposed to do...find a new cat??naah,,you are irreplaceable chiki...

do i look emotional here..yeah maybe..a lil bit..but..chiki has been my company when i'm alone at home..he's been a good friend and brother..who knows that a cat can make such a big affection to me..people who can't understand my feel can try have a cat..no...a pet and see what it can make to you in just 3 month...hukhukhuk..chiki(teary eyes)