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I used to think that I can live with myself, I mean without the parents guide. Of course not without my Allah, The One and Only Creator. This thought appear when I entered university. I thought everything is going to be okay. But, I failed...miserably. I fall into problems where I cant solve without their advice. I need my parents advice the same as I need air to breathe.

I learned how hurt can you be with the lose of a friend. I learned to be more stronger, of course with guidance from Allah and my parents. I learned how the friends and objects around me are  just an attachment for dunya where it is only temporary. Of all things, I learned to be more appreciative to peoples around me. For those I looked with ignorance, now come and save me from keep drowning. 

Peoples are different. I cant expect them to love what I love, and to like what I am doing. Going through all this, it helps me on knowing myself better and what I am searching for life. How life is not all about joy and love to objects and person, life is a journey to mend your heart, mind and soul. Now, I can simply read the Al-Quran Al Kareem, and tell all my problems to Allah. I realized now that even the closest person to you will not understand you like Allah and your parents do. 

I have reclaim my heart back. Now, when I didnt do something wrong and they appoint me, i will humbly walk away and put all under the power of Allah. I can managed to mend my fragile heart, to be more stronger of ujian and better in managing my emotion.

All these, it not coming to me just like that. I am grateful to Allah, my parents, Fina, Ain, Fatin and Farah. They are not my besties but their advice touch my heart at the deepest part. They care for me like my parents do. I am so grateful, for in the dark path of my life, Allah has shown me the light. The light to a blind me, that helps me find the way out.