My fan mate~~

Do anyone know who are on the picture?Bet most of you didnt know them =_=

Lols..emotional thought..The group above is the first korean group I know,thus the top favourite group in my list.I know I am just talking nonsense here and there.So,BTP..today was a happy day,no classes,no stress and time to rest.Together with Fina(my new classmate),we went to cafe for lunch and also wiFi...and yeah,I have broadband,but living in this rural area,at the most far block makes my internet connection soooo painfully slowly<antis s***a>

My Lunchie~~

Ok..scrolling over here and there...making assignment for about ten minutes and,yeah!time to joy..and thats where the story starts..

For about two hours downloading so many vids,my other classmate,Ana come for food..The conversation start with simple thing like..

Weit,da siap assigment?

Lom..kaw?

ak nk wat intro pon da stuck..

heheh..same la kite..

Ko wat pe wa?

Nie ha,dwnld running man nie..

epi bpe?

113..

Oh ak da ad..

Oh ye ker?haha,tak ckp awl2 kt ak

hahaha..114 lom kuar ea?

lom ag..tp TVXQ kuar epi tu..

Jap2..ko kte pe TVXQ?

aah..ko tak knl ea?

Tak knl??derrrr...tu number 1 ak plak 

Ko siyezz??

Ak siyez la wa...Changmin~~

And there goes the conversation of TVXQ fan..hehehe...You know the typical fan talk..Who is your bias..the vid..exchanging new and old vid...The Cassiopeia must love reading this..hehehe

We talk so much and forgot the time..giggling and laughing..make noise in the cafe..hehehe...it just like a reunion with dear fan..Kekekeke..
Had so much fun with Ana,thank you so much Anna

TVXQ forever
Cassiopeia forever

Just for fun..

If you gonna make me cry,at least be there to wipe away my tears..

QUOTES OF THE DAY

Cassiopeia forever

I need to..no,I must...

Today is my parent anniversary!!Puff..pom!Congrats mama and ayah,to manage to hold on to this beautiful marriage for almost 25 years,and also to have the strength to take care of us 4 naughty,silly kids.

Thanks a lot mama and ayah.I owed you so much,and I dont know whether I can pay it back or not.No...I must pay all your deeds back,a responsibility of a daughter to her parents.

Ok...8.15 p.m..I called my lovely parents to wish them..

MAMA,happy anniversary ma~~

Ayah,happy anniversary~~

Ok..and mama just answer thank you sweetie~~

But ayah said,How did you know?I thought you didnt even notice today is our anniversary?

Hahaha..ayah,like seriously?I am your daughter,of course la I know~~

I think ayah must feel so touched and surprised that his daughter wish him.Ayah,I had been wishing on your wedding anniversary almost every year laa..No wonder la I am the daughter misali..hehehehe

Braghhh..whatever,it just an empty story with nothing important to be brag about

The real thing is when my father start giving me the AMANAT speech.The speech was very heartwarming and I feel like he have given his trust to me 100%.I feel like crying now,all the amanat things seems to be lingering in my head.I think of it over and over again.

My ayah said,

Nina,ayah nk tgk nanti kamu jadi the best student,grads with the best grade you will get.Ayah nak kamu belaja lek lok,jangan main jer,ingat masa depan kamu.Walaupon masa depan kamu jadi cikgu tu cerah,banyak dugaan yang datang nanti.Sekarang ni sume orang nak yang terbaik.Ayah nak tengok masa kamu grad nanti kamu jadi pelajar terbaik.Boleh tak?

AYAH,,,,sobs..I will ayah..i will prove it to you ayah.I will make you proud for having me as your daughter ayah.I have to,no I must succeeds with flying colours.

No,its not about being emotional here..Yeah,maybe you are thinking its a typical quotes that come from every parents.Every parent wants their children to succeeds.

Yap..but for me,it holds a lot of hopes.A lot of hopes are being put to me,and I think with being successful,that is the way to pay my parents deed.This quotes from my father only comes twice or thrice in a while,but I keep it deep inside me.

I remember he told me twice in my secondary school,4 times in matriculation,and now the first one in university.But I still remember every single word he said.

I have a regrets that I bring it until now.Regrets of not performing so well in schools and matrics.Ayah and mama never say anything,but me,myself..feels so ashamed with what have I got.

So now,what i really need to do is study harder and smarter.make them proud of me.Believe in myself and charge forward!!!

I am lucky to have...

Studying at a new place.New challenges,new face,new attitude.

Everythings gonna be new now.Reviving every single old thing in myself or at the environment.

ALHAMDULILLAH,finally I managed to toughen myself in this new place.Sitting in front of lappy, reminscing the old days..its getting me all teary..Missing the old best friends,missing the old great wonderful school,missing the always filled of laughter environment.I have grown up.

The past seems so far away.I cant even reach it....

Huhuhu...and yeah..I have got myself new friends..Kelantanese,Sarawakians and so many more.Glad to have so many new friends,but it seems that the friends that I have been together for about 6 years,still manage to be my number one besties.I am so grateful to be bless with so many good friends.

Facing hard times,there is no one to help you except He THE GREATEST ALLAH.It makes me realize the important of religion in human life.I am so grateful to be in Islam.I have ALLAH to story all my sadness whenever I feel down.It feel really great to have no one besides you but you never feel alone.Now,I am truly understand when people says,in Islam help will be anywhere.

Ok now just wanna put some new and old pictures...

meet my new and not so new friend...amal and jane...huhu..amal!!

ok..I am freezing in this hall...red ocean nieh..

my matrixx friend..there are more actually..

 Yap...she is the greatest best friend I ever had

My matrixx roomate..miss them

I miss them so much too

MY ALWAYS TVXQ FOR FIVE

I miss my kampong!!

Another step~~

Yup!I'm gonna talk about this now...from a long time hiatus since the matrix ,and time really go fast...Pufff!and i have to face a reality of life in this university.It feel just like yesterday is the last day of the matrix final sem,and now within two months...I've to go again.Leaving my precious family and home behind.Forgetting all the comfort and love*slap...WTH I'm talking about?I'm so over..it's not like I'm force to go to a war..It just to study.....perghhh..

Chill out gurl....there's a long way to go...hahaha..Life will never be easy for you..

So,I'm gonna tell the moment when I get the offer...Yeah..daddy said    

"Na,sok result kuar..pas kol 12..Bdbnd ley pki ag x?"

and my respond

*gulp*nodded three times...too nervous to even speak.

Mommy..daddy..i'm scared...and they,with the calmest face ever...

"Ala..dpt2..caye je la ckp mak ayh nie"

YES!I really want to believe..but..I'm just a nervous paranoid girl,that can't stop thinking about bad things.Ding dong deng..12.30....should I?...no..no..wait..1.30...now?yeah!now or never..

Okay!browsing through intrnt...scrolling here and there..find a link...and there...

Sila masukkan no kad pengenalan 

Alamak...i/c ak bape doh...Searching for purse..maneplak purse ak pegi time tgh crucial cmnie..nk ilang plak..

"Mommy...nmpk purse nina x?"

"Apenyer kamu nie,brg kamu tanye ma plak"

"Kot la ma nmpk"

"Aah kamu...dpn mate kamu tu ape?"

"Uit..sejak bile plak ad kt sini nie ma?" ak wat senyum kambing kt mama

"Entah ler..jln sndri kot mende tu"

"Kekeke...sorry ma"

Okay..back to the room...nk msok ke tak nk nie...hesitating for bout half hours...Oiii..na,ko x yah nk kecot sgt lar...semak result je pon..Okeyh...I'll try.

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....mum!dad!I've made it!Ya Allah!syukur2...syukur Ya Allah..*sujud syukur..Thanks..mom,dad for your neverending pray and support to me..Thanks again Ya Allah..*sniff..Oi!Overacting pehal?bru dpt twrn..bkn graduate da...aish..okay2..

Takdela...Aku bkn ape...paranoid la..rsult matrik ak bkn gempak pon..tak gempak langsung!pastu pressure from both family sides..Uncle..aunties..aiyoo,you'll never know how I face them,talking proudly about their son and daughter achievement..Yeah..I know,I'm not genius as they are,but at least I've try my best.I push myself to show them what I got..Yeah..I'm not like their children.Studying in california,egypt..I'm just an ordinary person.

Sape tak sedey oi..org mane nk nmpk ape yg kite wat..camne kite study.They'll never know..the y just know,their children must be better than me...arghh...whatever..I'm just gonna 

DEAF MY EARS AND ENJOY MY LIFE...