Tuesday, 11 March 2014

Aku

           Attitude aku ni sebenarnya tak normal langsung. At times, aku boleh random gila sampai orang pun stare kat aku macam aku ni orang gila. And sometimes I can be passive to the max. Thus is me, guys. Aku perasan je aku memang ada turmoil of attitudes, and that is why I have to find friends yang boleh terima attitudes aku yang kadang-kadang macam fius tercabut pun ada. Sebab mama pernah cakap, kamu tu perangai lain macam sikit, hati-hati sikit berkawan tu. Yes, mom! *tabik spring. So, as long as I ever lived, Kawan-kawan yang aku jumpa semua boleh terima aku seadanya, or dia orang buat-buat terima, tu aku tak tau. Tapi yang penting I am happy with my friends now.So, thanks taw uolls. I appreciate that.




Really weh, priceless gila.

Family tak payah cakap la, aku rasa diorang dah terima aku seikhlasnya. Mama aku rasa dah naik pening tengok perangai anak perempuan bongsu dia yang mengalahkan adik-adik beliau yang lain. One thing, aku suka dilayan as the youngest in family. So, aku ni cepat jealous sangat kalau dalam family. Adik aku yang darjah 5 tu pun kadang kadang geleng kepala tengok perangai kakak dia yang dah tak layak panggil kakak dah. Aku tak kisah, yang penting diorang tau batas as adik aku, and diorang memang tau. Aku consider aku ni moodmaker la dalam family aku tu. 

Family aku besar gini taw, tapi ni belah ayah la. Ni pon baru separuh je, separuh lagi berterabur mana-mana entah *aku pon takde dalam ni


One thing, ayah tak kesah pon aku buat nakal macam mane, dia always sempoi. Tapi nyahh, kalau ayah aku dah bersaura satu pitch lower dari suara biasa dia, memang takda siapa berani angkat kepala. Aku yang anak ayah ni pon memang ketaq lutut aku. Tu lah yang aku respek kat ayah aku. Tegas dalam kesempoian dia. His tolerance level tinggi siyes weh, once in full moon je kadang-kadang boleh tengok ayah aku camtu. Tu pun kalau aku betul nakal tahap dah tak boleh terima akal. hikhik

Tu je aku nak membebel, entah kenapa, mood memblog aku datang sebulan sekali, tapi bila memblog aku merepek bagai.

Oh, ni aku main follow-follow depan kellies castle tu. Tangan gila hitam tu aku la tu.

Monday, 10 March 2014

Afraid

Afraid,
I am afraid of who I am,
I am afraid of who I became,
I am afraid of who I was,
I am afraid and insecure.

Afraid,
I am afraid of the people,
I am afraid of the world,
I am afraid of the nature,
I am afraid and fragile.

Afraid
I was afraid of who I am,
I was afraid of who I became,
I was afraid of who I was,
I was afraid and insecure.

1.47 AM
11 Mac 2014
Taman bahtera, Tanjung Malim

Wednesday, 5 June 2013

Tertanya-tanya..

Saya ni single ke tidak? Kenapa takde a solid answer from him, tapi still dia always take care of me..Saya tak kesah sebenarnya, tapi kenapa ad segelumit rase bersalah?Saya ada janji ape-ape ke?....Ape nie?


Ape-ape pun, saye tetap milik Allah SWT

Tuesday, 14 May 2013

Berdikari

I used to think that I can live with myself, I mean without the parents guide. Of course not without my Allah, The One and Only Creator. This thought appear when I entered university. I thought everything is going to be okay. But, I failed...miserably. I fall into problems where I cant solve without their advice. I need my parents advice the same as I need air to breathe.

I learned how hurt can you be with the lose of a friend. I learned to be more stronger, of course with guidance from Allah and my parents. I learned how the friends and objects around me are  just an attachment for dunya where it is only temporary. Of all things, I learned to be more appreciative to peoples around me. For those I looked with ignorance, now come and save me from keep drowning. 

Peoples are different. I cant expect them to love what I love, and to like what I am doing. Going through all this, it helps me on knowing myself better and what I am searching for life. How life is not all about joy and love to objects and person, life is a journey to mend your heart, mind and soul. Now, I can simply read the Al-Quran Al Kareem, and tell all my problems to Allah. I realized now that even the closest person to you will not understand you like Allah and your parents do. 

I have reclaim my heart back. Now, when I didnt do something wrong and they appoint me, i will humbly walk away and put all under the power of Allah. I can managed to mend my fragile heart, to be more stronger of ujian and better in managing my emotion.

All these, it not coming to me just like that. I am grateful to Allah, my parents, Fina, Ain, Fatin and Farah. They are not my besties but their advice touch my heart at the deepest part. They care for me like my parents do. I am so grateful, for in the dark path of my life, Allah has shown me the light. The light to a blind me, that helps me find the way out.

Monday, 6 May 2013

Difference

Emotion, that what differ educated and uneducated people.
Great emotion born from those who will stop and stare to their mistakes or achievement, noticing the bad and good behind it. 
-Aswa Amanina-