chiki~~~

konomachite,meguriata(my ringtones) yoboseyo?nina kakak nie...oh kakak..why?no,,juz wanna tell you...what??chiki has died...................................what!!!!!!reallyyy!!!no!!!!!!!...................................................................

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my cattttt...hukhuk..chiki died..!!!mama...so sad..he supposed to play with me now but he`s gone forever...chiki..sis will miss u so much..really2x..and worst i was not there when he died...it`s a tragedy for me..

i know he`s been sick..but i never thought that he's gonna leave me..what am i supposed to do...find a new cat??naah,,you are irreplaceable chiki...

do i look emotional here..yeah maybe..a lil bit..but..chiki has been my company when i'm alone at home..he's been a good friend and brother..who knows that a cat can make such a big affection to me..people who can't understand my feel can try have a cat..no...a pet and see what it can make to you in just 3 month...hukhukhuk..chiki(teary eyes)

wordless tuesday~~~~

just a wordless tuesday..kekeke..

now~~

it's the time to start running!not that running man variety show..it's time to speed up for the incoming ups...huhu..

remembering for the ups..making me nervous..

seems that i have bad memory for my sem 1 ups..huhuhu

hmmm..

tapi tetibe rase nk khabaq pasal nie plak..

i have a friend..consider a new one..but i really can get along with her..we seem that we have a lot of similarity...

and for the whole first sem..we've been like a best friend..

but something happen..

bad for her and me too as her friend..

she doesnt make it to the second sem..and make decision to not going on with the matrixx program

as her friend..i support her with everything that i think i could

one by one bad thing comes to her..

her boyfriend can't also continue the matrixx..she broke up with him..she crying everyday when she have to go to the class..

as her friend..yeah..maybe i do nothing but to just consoling her..

been busy with the class..i sometimes can't reply her msj and can't come to her room to talk with her..

then she told me that she was going to leave..

it strikes me uknow!!she gonna leave me..but it is for her own good..

i accept it with teary eyes..

hopes that this friendship will remain wherever we are...

but when the day she go..i wait all day long to bid the last goodbye for her..

and then..she told me.."aswa,ak da kt.banting,sory 4 everything"

wait!!what???

she leave me without a word..

does she doesnt feel what i'm feeling..

ok..to make me better i say to myself that maybe she needs time alone..

she needs space to calm herself..

ok..maybeeeeee

then 1 months has passed..

seeing her posting her new activities on fb..

makes me think that she is living a happy life..

without even contacting me..

i throw all my ego last night...i text her..

waittttttttttttt

no answer..

ok...she maybe have no credit..

but yeah..i hope so..

fren..no matter how far we apart..i will never forget you..

thanx for da memory

welcome 2012

as you can see its a normal thing to view all blogs with the same post

bloggers are all posting for new year..

hehehe..guess i will do the same too...

somehow..2012 nie terase sgt sedey la..

i'm going to 19 this year..there's no more sweet 17 or 18..it's like sour 19!

huhuhu..confession of people who dont want to get old..

really!i recall my ustaz's words...the older the people become,the more he will repent and reflect to the past..

seems that i feel the same too..

right now..i start to think of my past behaviour..seems that it got more bad thing than the good..terok kn ak nie!!

siyez weh..tetibe kesedaran punye mode dtg melimpah2..tears start to flow..huhuhu....

tapi ape ak nie!i'm just only 19 and now i'm starting to mumbling like i'm already 40 years old...

tapi kan..i should thank myself coz and also ALLAH for giving me thought to make myself a better person..bile ag kn..maut is not something that we can predict and we can decide when..skang nie the words "its better late than never" da tak ley pakai da..u should use "its the best to do now than later'...huhu i make my own philosophy....does that mean i get the title philosophy doc..kekeke...kidding!

now,,,i'm struggling to make all this wishes come true

• wake up early dude...not early as my early is 6.45..earlier i think..
• just be a hardworking person!make the tutor!
• be a more lovely girl to anyone
• act as a matured sister to all my dongsaengs!(i sould be the example right?)
• be a taat hamba tu ALLAH YANG MAHA ESA
• make a good,sweet memory wherever i go
• be a good daughter to my parents...(i wish this every year!)
• be a good supporter to jyj!!huhuhu
• try to post many post in the blog

• smile sweetly................

poommm!!booom!!(sound effect)fire cracker in my blog!!wonderful right!enjoy it!!hope that all my lovely people will always be in a good condition along this 2012...just be a simple person...

heart speak~~

juz wondering here..

have some fast walking on my own blog..

feeeling sadness in my heart..

one of my frend will leaving me today

one by one..

yesterday was aishah..

and now..it's nisha turn

beeen missing aishah's laughter

wondering if she feel the same too

or it juz me??

but idont think she will forget our memory

and nisha..

after all that we have been through

for 1 semester in this matric

it's so hard to let you go dear

but life must go on

i know..

this is the best path for you

the better choice for your own future

somehow...

nobody will ever replace your place

huhuhu

think that i been over my emotion

gut to hold it back

it juz a temporary separation

i promise...

we will meet again 

sooner or later

let ALLAH decide it

i'm juz hoping that both of u

will do the best in that new place and environment

we will be friend forever

eternal....