Refleksi

Tiada siapa dapat menjangkakan akan bila datangnya kematian kita. Sebagai hamba Allah yang penuh dosa dan hina, aku sangat takut bila kematian akan datang menjemputku. Apakah keadaan ku apabila aku mati? Bagaimanakah nyawa aku diambil? Sempatkah aku bertaubat? Adakah aku akan dihadapkan kepada Allah Maha Esa dalam keadaan berlumuran dosa.

Aku sedar sekali bahawa diriku ini masih dihantui dengan dosa-dosa silamku. Aku ingin sekali berubah. Jauh dari cara hidupku yang dulu. Namun, aku tidak pernah kuat dalam perubahan ini. Solat ku masih ada yang tertinggal, amal jariahku masih sedikit, hatiku masih dipenuhi dengan noktah hitam yang menjijikkan. Sesungguhnya aku ingin bersujud di hadapan Allah dengan perasaan yang sangat tenang.

Ramadhan yang bakal tiba ini, ingin sekali aku memaksimakan ibadah ibadahku. Ambil peluang bulan yang suci tanpa syaitan ini untuk memohon ampun daripada yang Maha Esa. Aku ingin sekali lihat diriku berubah ke arah kebaikan. Aku tidak mahu melakukan ini untuk menunjuk-nunjuk, tetapi untuk keredhaan Allah. Biarlah aku paksa diriku melakukan ibadah daripada tiada rasa bersalah meninggalkan ibadahmu Ya Allah.

Ingin sekali aku menjadi anak solehah, yang boleh membantu ibu-bapanya apabila diperlukan. Ingin sekali aku berlari ke rumah apabila mama dan ayah mengeluh penat. Limpahkan lah ku rezeki dan kekuatan untuk berbakti kepada kedua ibu bapaku. Ak ingin melihat mereka tersenyum bangga terhadap puteri mereka.

Kematian memang tidak dapat dihindarkan lagi. Face this reality. 

Lost a friend, friends

Step one, you say, We need to talk
He walks, you say, Sit down, it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all, you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And I pray to God he hears you

And where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Efektif atau tidak? Usaha dulu.

Penjelasan efektif atau tidak boikot kita, yang pentig, kita kena mainkan peranan masing-masing.

Saya tidak pandai dan kurang faham politik. Sebab itu di facebook saya tak pernah pun menulis apa2 perihal politik. Tetapi, saya amat tahu dan faham mengenai perniagaan melalui pengalaman 14 tahun dalam bidang perniagaan dan juga konsultan/speaker kepada beberapa perniagaan besar dalam dan luar negara.

Izinkan saya mengambil masa 2 minit daripada anda untuk jelaskan bagaimana usaha boikot perniagaan-perniagaan yang membantu Zionis telah memberi impak teruk kepada mereka dan apa yang kita sebagai pejuang Islam perlu lakukan untuk terus membantu.

Baru-baru ini, dilaporkan, dua jenama gergasi dunia mengalami kejatuhan di pasaran saham dunia akibat boikot, iaitu syarikat Coca Cola dan juga Mc Donalds. CNN melaporkan (satu lagi yang perlu boikot), kejatuhan nilai dua perniagaan tersebut adalah akibat orang ramai serata dunia memboikot dua syarikat tersebut.

Di sini, perlu saya fahamkan anda, apa yang terjadi.

Sebenarnya, untuk sesebuah syarikat besar mengalami kerugian yang banyak, tidak memerlukan 100% orang boikot. Tidak juga memerlukan 50% pengguna berhenti menggunakan produk mereka. Memadai untuk sebuah syarikat besar jatuh keuntungan mereka sebanyak 10% sahaja, sudah memadai untuk memberi impak yang besar kepada organisasi. Inilah yang terjadi pada dua syarikat Coca Cola dan McDonalds.

Hakikatnya, boikot produk-produk Israel (Coke dan McD bukan produk Israel) dan juga produk yang menyokong Israel (Coke dan McD tergolong dalam yang ini), telah bermula bertahun-tahun lamanya. Sejak 2009, beberapa pasaraya besar Eropah telah mula menghentikan pengambilan stok produk-produk Israel.

Cuma sejak kebelakangan ini, isu boikot telah menjadi tumpuan pengguna dan orang ramai oleh kerana penyebaran mesej boikot melalui media sosial seperti Facbook ini.

Negara seperti Turki baru-baru ini telah menghentikan pengambilan Coca Cola untuk rak-rak kedai/pasaraya. Begitu juga hotel-hotel di India telah mula menghenti pengambilan Coca Cola di premis mereka. Pelanggan di restoran francais McDonald juga terdapat pengurangan. Mungkin dilihat tidak banyak, tetapi seperti yang dikatakan, pengurangan untung 10% akan memberi impak kepada organisasi.

Di Malaysia Persatuan Pengguna-Pengguna Islam telah menekankan 4 produk yang perlu di boikot, iaitu McDonalds, Coca Cola, Starbucks dan Colgate. Walaupun banyak lagi produk yang membantu Zionis, 4 ini diberi penekanan untuk boikot secara strategik.

Adakah dengan boikot perniagaan seperti Coca Cola, Mc Donalds, Colgate, Starbucks dan lain-lain akan menghentikan peperangan Gaza?

Jawapannya mungkin tidak. Wallahualam.

Tetapi, yang nyata, usaha boikot memberi impak kepada perniagaan-perniagaan yang membantu Zionist. Usaha boikot menjatuhkan nilai mereka di pasaran saham dan juga nilai mereka di mata insan-insan perihatin. Usaha boikot akan menjauhkan syarikat-syarikat lain dalam menjalinkan hubungan dengan regim Zionis dalam membantu mereka.

Dan inilah yang terjadi kini. Alhamudlillah, kemenangan kepada kita.

Sememangnya, untuk lakukan boikot 100% diakui adalah agak sukar. Mungkin anda sedang membaca nukilan saya ini menggunakan PC yang dikuasai Pentium? Atau di pejabat anda menjalankan tugas menggunakan Pentium? Intel juga adalah antara penyumbang terbesar Zionis. Mungkin juga antara sahabat atau keluarga kita masih merokok? Masih minum Milo? masih makan Maggie? Juga memyumbang ke arah Zionis.

Tetapi, sekiranya tidak boleh 100%, kurangkanlah 50%. Sekiranya tidak mampu 50%, kurangkan lah 10%. Ingat, kejatuhan keuntungan perniagaan dan jenama besar 10% akan memberi impak kerugian yang besar kepada organisasi tersebut.

Sekurang-kurangnya, usaha meninggalkan produk yang membantu Zionis yang sedikit itu, mampu memberi penangan yang besar kepada syarikat-syarikat yang membantu Zionis dan menjauhkan hubungan syarikat-syarikat lain dikaitkan dengan mereka seperti banyak syarikat kini.

Dan walaupun mungkin Zionist melihat kemenangan mereka dalam membunuh beribu rakyat, kanak-kanak dan ibu palestine serta mengambil tanah mereka, ia merupakan kemenangan yang kosong yang tidak mendapat restu dan dikeji satu dunia melalui usaha boikot kita.

Teringat sebuah kisah yang diceritakan oleh ustaz saya satu ketika dulu di zaman Nabi Ibrahim, yang dibakar oleh kaumnya. Seekor burung cuba memadam api tersebut menggunakan air yang dikendong di dalam paruhnya berulang alik. Walaupun gagal memadamkan api tersebut, tetapi apabila ditanya, jawabnya, ia berusaha juga - walaupun sedikit demi Islam.

SUMBER : Irfan Khairi

Teach, teaching, teacher

I try to poke jokes,
They make fun of me,
I try to be understanding,
They shoo me off.

I try to be friendly,
They put the borderline right into my face,
I try to be the teacher,
They wants to be the headmaster.

I am young and strong,
I will not lose this fight,
Be it 20 or 30 years more,
They will learn that me, is the unbeatable one.

Aswa Amanina Abu Shairi

SMK Munshi Abdullah, 6th August 2014

Pitiful enough

Yesterday, was such a pitiful day for me and ain. Haha, stupid me actually. Aku dapat mesej dari cik Puan Fina, mintak tolong ambik kan dia balik dari dinner kat SITC. So, aku pun dapat je mesej terus ajak ain, JOM. Dengan serabai tahap tak boleh buat menantu orang, kitorang pon pergilah kampus dengan lenggang kangkong gitu. 

And the story start, bila sampai traffic right tu, kitorang sedar yang dua-dua anak dara ni tak bawak hanset. Demm. Nak angkut orang tapi tak bawat the most important communication thing nak contact si Puan Fina. Masa tu, dah bertawakal je. Harap Puan Fina tunggu dah depan SITC tu. Yeah, tunggu kat situ dalam 10 min, Cik Puan Fina memang tak nampak langsung batang hidung.

Aku dah fikir nak jerit je nama dia, FINA!!FINA DO YOU HEAR ME?. Tapi sebab ke takappropriatetan aku, aku hold je. So ain dengan otak dia yang bergeliga tu, ajak cari public phone. Heol~I respect you ain. Ko boleh terfikir nak cari p. phone. SO, pusing satu kampus dah, tak jumpa pon. Yelah, kita kan hidup dalam zaman yang semua orang dah ada phone sendiri, no need that old, coiny public phone kan. At last, ain pun ajak pergi depan sekolah methodist tu, mana tau ada kan.

That school was so freaking dark. Serious, macam dah buat shooting thriller film. Nak di tambahkan seram, ada church kat situ. Ohmaii.  Kitorang beranikan diri, berbekalkan lampu jalan yang samar-samar macam bateri nak abes. And thanks god, ain ingat number su. So berbekatkan 50 sen, kitorang call su, suruh dia call Fina suruh tunggu kat depan SITC. How twist is that? 

Lastly, masuk kampus balik, with hope Puan Fina dah tunggu situ. And Yeah!! the diva is there, haha, we laughed like crazy. Adventurous night gitu. Tapi yeah, best pulak pakai public phone setelah sekian lama. 

Tapi serious, maybe benda ni nampak kecik, tapi bagi aku, experience tu memang best. ^_^

 

Oh, ni lah Puan Fina, si diva

MH370

             MH370, incident ni akan jadi sejarah hitam Malaysia yang memang akan segar dalam ingatan rakyatnya. Kenapa aku nak bercakap pasal flight ni? Yes, of course as Malaysian, aku pun turut terasa tempias kesedihan. Ada je saudara seislam aku dalam pesawat tu. Dan juga sekarang rumah sewa dah ada tv, so memang aku kira sangat-sangat mengikuti perkembangan kes ni. Sekarang aku memang dah tak layan langsung apa-apa spekulasi dalam facebook or twitter, unknown resources and too much lies.

Dan hari tu, kelas novel 3 hours straight, bincang pasal theories and effect of this incident to our country. Mula-mula, kes ni memang tak sangat aku terasa, tapi bila dengar dr. Shima cakap pasal kita kena fikir pasal country, pasal saudara seislam dalam tu, aku pon dah bergenang air mata. Dr. Shima is one direct person, I tell you. So, aku sangat tak sangka dia memang sangat ter-effect dengan kes ni. Dia menangis dan buat solat hajat untuk membantu kes ni.

Yang aku tertariknya, salah satu teori yang Dr. Shima bagi, memang sebijik dengan apa yang aku fikir selama ni. Aku cuma tak nak bagitau orang, afraid of being labelled as KUNO, SYIRIK. The theory is, she said, kita hidup dekat bumi ni, berkongsi dengan banyak lagi makhluk yang kita tak boleh nampak. So, thats why kita kena always berhati-hati dalam apa segala yang kita buat. Dr. said that, kapal terbang tu maybe dah terjunam ke dalam laut China Selatan tu, sekali semua dengan satu pesawat, and why there is no debris?. Sebab ada benda yang menahan dia, Dr. didnt elaborate that something, tapi kami ni dah faham. Memang ada logiknya. Dr. kata mungkin makhluk-makhluk ciptaan Allah tu sedang makan passengers tu dan tak nak bagi balik. OK. FULLSTOP. Lain, terpulang lah kat imagination korang sendiri.

Aku memang dah fikir macam tu dari hari first pesawat tu hilang, yang lain nya, aku cuma tak rasa pesawat tu jatuh, tapi masih terbang seperti biasa, tapi mungkin kat dimensi lain yang berlainan zon masa. Yang mungkin 5 hari di bumi, baru 3 jam di dimensi itu. Sebab aku ada tengok artikel yang kata, family mangsa call hanset diorang masih ada tone, so, macam pelik pulak kalau dah jatuh laut tapi handset still on.  Wallahualam, aku tak nak fikir lebih-lebih, aku balik kepada Allah. Kalau Allah swt dah takdirkan benda ni berlaku, memang takde siapa bolah halang. Jadi, aku berserah, Allah itu Maha Mengetahui.

Sesunnguhnya, aku memang masih berharap supaya pesawat itu dikembalikan semula dengan selamat tanpa sebarang cacat cela.  Aku memang masih mengharapkan sebarang keajaiban berlaku, tapi semuanya aku serahkan kepada Allah. Allah sajalah yang maha mengetahui baik-buruknya kisah ini.

Mungkin apa yang aku tulis ni macam lebih kepada supernatural tanpa penjelasaan sains, tapi itu lah yang aku rasa.

 Dan satu lagi, aku rasa ini adalah satu peringatan kepada umat manusia, dalam kealpaan kita dalam teknologi moden, jangan lupa kepada yang paling berkuasa, jangan berjalan di muka bumi Allah, dengan mendabik dada secara bongkak. Ingat, kita hanya menumpang di bumi Allah.

Teruskan berdoa untuk yang terbaik #prayformh370

Aku

           Attitude aku ni sebenarnya tak normal langsung. At times, aku boleh random gila sampai orang pun stare kat aku macam aku ni orang gila. And sometimes I can be passive to the max. Thus is me, guys. Aku perasan je aku memang ada turmoil of attitudes, and that is why I have to find friends yang boleh terima attitudes aku yang kadang-kadang macam fius tercabut pun ada. Sebab mama pernah cakap, kamu tu perangai lain macam sikit, hati-hati sikit berkawan tu. Yes, mom! *tabik spring. So, as long as I ever lived, Kawan-kawan yang aku jumpa semua boleh terima aku seadanya, or dia orang buat-buat terima, tu aku tak tau. Tapi yang penting I am happy with my friends now.So, thanks taw uolls. I appreciate that.

Really weh, priceless gila.

Family tak payah cakap la, aku rasa diorang dah terima aku seikhlasnya. Mama aku rasa dah naik pening tengok perangai anak perempuan bongsu dia yang mengalahkan adik-adik beliau yang lain. One thing, aku suka dilayan as the youngest in family. So, aku ni cepat jealous sangat kalau dalam family. Adik aku yang darjah 5 tu pun kadang kadang geleng kepala tengok perangai kakak dia yang dah tak layak panggil kakak dah. Aku tak kisah, yang penting diorang tau batas as adik aku, and diorang memang tau. Aku consider aku ni moodmaker la dalam family aku tu. 

Family aku besar gini taw, tapi ni belah ayah la. Ni pon baru separuh je, separuh lagi berterabur mana-mana entah *aku pon takde dalam ni

One thing, ayah tak kesah pon aku buat nakal macam mane, dia always sempoi. Tapi nyahh, kalau ayah aku dah bersaura satu pitch lower dari suara biasa dia, memang takda siapa berani angkat kepala. Aku yang anak ayah ni pon memang ketaq lutut aku. Tu lah yang aku respek kat ayah aku. Tegas dalam kesempoian dia. His tolerance level tinggi siyes weh, once in full moon je kadang-kadang boleh tengok ayah aku camtu. Tu pun kalau aku betul nakal tahap dah tak boleh terima akal. hikhik

Tu je aku nak membebel, entah kenapa, mood memblog aku datang sebulan sekali, tapi bila memblog aku merepek bagai.

Oh, ni aku main follow-follow depan kellies castle tu. Tangan gila hitam tu aku la tu.

Afraid

Afraid,
I am afraid of who I am,
I am afraid of who I became,
I am afraid of who I was,
I am afraid and insecure.

Afraid,
I am afraid of the people,
I am afraid of the world,
I am afraid of the nature,
I am afraid and fragile.

Afraid
I was afraid of who I am,
I was afraid of who I became,
I was afraid of who I was,
I was afraid and insecure.

1.47 AM
11 Mac 2014
Taman bahtera, Tanjung Malim

Tertanya-tanya..

Saya ni single ke tidak? Kenapa takde a solid answer from him, tapi still dia always take care of me..Saya tak kesah sebenarnya, tapi kenapa ad segelumit rase bersalah?Saya ada janji ape-ape ke?....Ape nie?

Ape-ape pun, saye tetap milik Allah SWT

Berdikari

I used to think that I can live with myself, I mean without the parents guide. Of course not without my Allah, The One and Only Creator. This thought appear when I entered university. I thought everything is going to be okay. But, I failed...miserably. I fall into problems where I cant solve without their advice. I need my parents advice the same as I need air to breathe.

I learned how hurt can you be with the lose of a friend. I learned to be more stronger, of course with guidance from Allah and my parents. I learned how the friends and objects around me are  just an attachment for dunya where it is only temporary. Of all things, I learned to be more appreciative to peoples around me. For those I looked with ignorance, now come and save me from keep drowning. 

Peoples are different. I cant expect them to love what I love, and to like what I am doing. Going through all this, it helps me on knowing myself better and what I am searching for life. How life is not all about joy and love to objects and person, life is a journey to mend your heart, mind and soul. Now, I can simply read the Al-Quran Al Kareem, and tell all my problems to Allah. I realized now that even the closest person to you will not understand you like Allah and your parents do. 

I have reclaim my heart back. Now, when I didnt do something wrong and they appoint me, i will humbly walk away and put all under the power of Allah. I can managed to mend my fragile heart, to be more stronger of ujian and better in managing my emotion.

All these, it not coming to me just like that. I am grateful to Allah, my parents, Fina, Ain, Fatin and Farah. They are not my besties but their advice touch my heart at the deepest part. They care for me like my parents do. I am so grateful, for in the dark path of my life, Allah has shown me the light. The light to a blind me, that helps me find the way out.

Difference

Emotion, that what differ educated and uneducated people.

Great emotion born from those who will stop and stare to their mistakes or achievement, noticing the bad and good behind it. 

-Aswa Amanina-

Politics =.+

Politics makes people go insane?I don't know, people here and there are going viral about politics, I am too, but not that viral. Since I cant vote yet, I am still searching for the right path. I want the right things, so in the end I will not regret for what I have done.

Seriously, talking bout politics, even my friend that I thought knew nothing about it, CHANGED!By I mean changed is he/she go crazily posting everywhere all the fact about his/her favourite party. He/she campaigning like he/she was the one who competing in the election. Talking bad about other party and vise versa. Sigh..I am not being sarcastic here, but hey, you should know after the election end, we will go back to normal.

Dont go criticize people to no end, they are your friends, family, or even neighbour. So, think wisely. It is okay if you wanted to help your party, but remember not to involved in fight with your friend. After all this end, you will lose them all. Remember, politics help you to get the power, but not the friends.

Oh yeah, just a show off,a vid that I made and make her cried,like a lot

Jumpee

I want to make a high, infinite jump from where I am, but I just too lazy...==

Random words

Oleh kerana TESL

Tadi, di mukabuku atau bahasa Inggerisnya, Facebook, terlalu ramai rakan sekuliah saya mengatakan bahawa mereka, para pelajar jurusan TESL telah diejek apabila menggunakan bahasa inggeris untuk bercakap sesama sendiri di kafe. Saya memang tidak pernah berjumpa dengan kes seperti ini, tetapi sebagai antara salah seorang pelajar jurusan ini, rasa marah itu ada. 

Mengapa kami, pelajar jurusan TESL selalu dianggap sombong jika berkomunikasi dalam bahasa inggeris?Kami tidak berkomunikasi dengan orang luar menggunakan bahasa inggeris, tetapi dengan rakan sejurusan. Kami hanya mahu memantapkan apa yang kami belajar. Jauh sekali kami hendak mengenepikan bahasa ibunda, yang telah sekian lama diguna. 

Seperti juga pelajar jurusan biologi bersembang mengenai segala macam bakteria yang ada di dunia, mereka hanya hendak mempraktikkan apa yang diajar,bukan begitu? Saya tidak emosi di sini, tetapi hendak mencari punca dan musabab mengapakah kami diejek ketika menggunakan bahasa Inggeris?

Saya tidak mahu menuding jari menuduh, Ha!kamulah yang mengejek kami tadi. Tidak sama sekali, saya hanya ingin tahu mengapa?

Mengapa?

Dan mengapa?

Dah tahu jawapannya sila beritahu saya

Sementara itu.....

Random post  of pic ^^

She is one cool friend,trust me

Zaman gila remaja

Coursemate in night class..See,I am 1 Malaysia

Fina is just one lovely girl

And my beloved food

Of dessert fever(that waffle is awesome!)

On korean food fever

On old town fever

New addiction--not so new

Don't look back in anger
Slip inside the eye of your mindDon't you know you might find a better place to playYou said that you'd never beenBut all the things that you've seen will slowly fade away
So I start a revolution from my bed'Coz you said the brains I had went to my headStep outside the summertime's in bloomStand up beside the fireplace, take that look from off your faceYou ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can waitShe knows it's too late as we're walking on byHer soul slides away"But don't look back in anger", I heard you say
Take me to the place where you goWhere nobody knows if it's night or dayPlease don't put your life in the handsOf a Rock 'n' Roll band who'll throw it all away
Gonna start the revolution from my bed'Coz you said the brains I had went to my headStep outside 'coz summertime's in bloomStand up beside the fireplace, take that look from off your faceYou ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
So Sally can waitShe knows it's too late as we're walking on byHer soul slides away"But don't look back in anger", I heard you say
So Sally can waitShe knows it's too late as we're walking on byHer soul slides away"But don't look back in anger", I heard you say
So Sally can waitShe knows it's too late as she's walking on byMy soul slides away"But don't look back in anger, don't look back in anger"I heard you say, at least not today

Don't know..just found this song is way too addictive..I am singing this all day long even thought this was release like 18 years ago..thanks to atika, i cant get this song out of my head

Alhamdulillah

  

Alhamdulillah..Thanks to ALLAH The Merciful,For the love that He had given to me,the bless and so many more that if I list it down,it will never be enough.Finally,I am surely in the right track now..I found what I have been searching for..For the last 3 years,I am always searching for  the truth,but now..I finally found it

I am so blessed to be in UPSI and to be a TESLIAN

Its been a long journey before.I shed so many tears and overcome sooo many pain in order to get what I am today.I know I am being overreacting,only a student for SEM 1,but seriously has starting to brag about it so much??No,I am not being arrogant or proud,just saying to the world that i am happy now!Truly happy.

My journey in life for study had never been so simple(sape yg sng kn?)Starting the SPM and matriculation session,it was the toughest period in my life that I ever went through.At first,I thought that doctor,pharmacy are totally me..but I found out later that SCIENCE was totally not my field.And I found it too late,too late to go back.

The place of 1001 memories

The matriculation time was the toughest ever,even though the memories there surely the best.I always thought why cant I get a good marks like my other friends?What did I always left  behind?Where did it gone wrong?For the first semester in matric,I thought I was lacking my hard works to excel in the exam.But when I boost up for second semester,nothing also happened.After UPS,Alhamdullilah..ALLAH finally give me some strength and clue to keep going through the semester,no matter how hard it is,keep going on,never give up,speed up and tawakal to ALLAH at the end.

ALLAH shows the way to me,to be strong for after this there are great thing awaits for me.Again,Alhamdulillah to ALLAH,he gives me strength again even my result as not good as my other friends,I am so grateful.And not to forget,my parents that always,never,24/7 pray for me.

After the result and for the UPU things,I can saw my way then.I never thought that the things that I always love to do will be my study and Insyaalah my profession.I know TESL is the most accurate and right course I will ever get.

MY THANK TO LIST:

The most lovely daddy in the whole universe

The most lovely mommy in the whole universe

The siblings I could not live without

My biggest supporter

My SLISS friends that keep on fighting with me till matric

My second brain functioner

Actually there is so many more..teachers,lecturers..I am so grateful to have all of you by my side,to guide me...thank you so much

I am happy with what I study now.I am happy and thankful.The result of my final exam really makes me more confident that I am in the right track.

ALHAMDULILLAH

9 years with you..

Dear Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu, Kim Jaejoong, Shim Changmin and Jung Yunho,

Congratulations on your ninth anniversary since making your debut as members of TVXQ.

In the winter of 2003, we received a belated Christmas present in the form of five bumbling boys dancing on stage, looking nervous but happy to be performing.

And here we stand, 9 years later.

Though you may not be together to celebrate this momentous occasion, know that there are people like me who still remember, and still believe.

Whether you are Micky Yoochun, Xiah Junsu, Hero Jaejoong, Max Changmin and U-Know Yunho of TVXQ,
Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu and Kim Jaejoong of JYJ and Max Changmin and U-Know Yunho of TVXQ,
or Park Yoochun, Kim Junsu, Kim Jaejoong, Shim Changmin and Jung Yunho: the actor, the MC, the musical actor, the solo singer..

I will support you, no matter what. No matter what decisions you make and no matter what path you walk down, know that I am here, behind you 100%.

Though I fell in love with TVXQ, I grew to respect the individual aspirations and dreams of five amazing guys who have shown me the world and more. I can accept that your individual dreams may not be the same as each others, and that shouldn't make me love you any less.

Follow your dreams, follow what you feel is right, even if the rest of the world says it's wrong.
As long as you know that at the end of the day, you'll fall asleep with no regrets, do what makes YOU happy.

Thank you for entering our lives nine years ago and bringing us such joy that we could have never imagined.
Thank you for inspiring us to dream bigger, and to do our best, no matter what gets thrown our way.
Thank you for giving us more than we could ever repay, for teaching us more than we could have ever hoped to learn.

Thank you for being you,
Kim Junsu, the baby-like, sports loving, technologically challenged, mood maker duckbutt who always does his best and is musically gifted,
Park Yoochun, the man who is able to make fangirls scream with a single haircut and has entranced the world with his talent and charm,
Kim Jaejoong, the fashionista interior designer living in the 4th dimension who loves his members like no one else, almost to a fault,
Shim Changmin, the snarky, sarcastic maknae whose high notes can't be matched and who cares for his members even when no one is watching,
Jung Yunho, the well-mannered leader who bears the weight of the world on his shoulders, but always has a smile on his face.

Never change who you are, for you are perfect and we love you.


And to my fellow fans,

You all are just as amazing as the five men who have brought us together.
I know it can get hard, and I know there are days when it feels like it'll be easier to let go, and I can't stop you if you do decide to leave us.

Whether you are a JYJ fan, a TVXQ fan, an OT5 fan or whatever you label yourself, I hope today can be the day when you let it all go and just celebrate the day we received a gift too valuable to be swept aside and forgotten.


Here's to nine amazing years, and many more to come.
2003.12.26~ing
영원할꺼죠 영원합니다 영원히하나 당연하지요 사랑합니다

Fans of 4.5 years-xijunna-

My hero,my max,my uknow my xiah and my micky..

we are the ONE eternally